It’s been more than a while since I last updated. Life has hit me hard, and I’ve been slammed with personal issues, the madness that is the Humana Festival (plus the awesomeness of the opening nights and parties), and just a general lack of interest in writing about what I deem as a failing at “me” in general. It’s hard but I’m slowly working through things, with the support of the people in my life who mean more than the world to me, good news when I thought there would be none, and trying to change my mindset for the better.

I have missed the past two weeks in weigh ins. Before that, I didn’t miss weighing, I just missed posting them here. I don’t know what they are off the top of my head now, but I’ll be updating that later.

The one thing that I have been rocking at is the vegetarian thing. I’ve only ate seafood twice, both times at restaurants. This was huge since my mom was here for my birthday weekend and I literally ate out with her for every meal the three days that she was here. I’m so proud of myself, and although I’ve been having a slightly mini-breakdown, it’s empowering to be able to do this. I love the way I feel as a vegetarian, and I know it’s only going to continue for the better.

That being said, my portion control is out of control, and the closest thing I have done in the sense of exercise is from this past weekend helping my friend move into her new house, washer/dryer and all. I’m trying hard to get back to where I was. I sound like a broken record don’t I? But it’s true. All I have is to at least try. I’m slowly getting there, but this summer might prove to be a challenge. I hope that I can step up my game in the exercise and portion control departments. I need to. I hate myself, and I need to be able to control myself. I still can’t afford a gym membership, but that’s ok. I really want to start trying to run and eventually work up to a 5k. I think that’s what I’m going to work on the most this summer.

In other news, anyone watch Biggest Loser? This is the first year I’ve watched, and I’m obsessed really only because of my love for Daris. I want him to win so badly! He seems like a genuine sweet guy who deserves it.