what i at wednesday: august 28th edition

Yesterday was a better day than I have been in terms of eating, but still wasn’t the greatest.

I started out with some coffee at work, which I had more because of necessity than want. I don’t have any creamer there so it was just sugar and coffee. More importantly it was warm. And my hands were numb because I work with 98.9% boys and the only areas air conditioned are the offices. So when you are sitting at your desk looking for the exact model of TV that was in MLK’s hotel (we are doing a production of The Mountaintop) it gets cold. Like really cold. Then you forget and go outside and instantly sweat because it’s like 90 degrees out.

I also had some water throughout the day in my trusty LIfefactory glass bottle.

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For lunch I had a bag of Ruffles from the vending machine, a Diet Dr Pepper, my favorite Amy’s burrito (the spinach tofu wrap), and some green beans I swiped from Karl…well, I say swiped and really he gave them to me because he grew a lot and was sick of them. They were fantastic by the way, and knowing Karl I’ll probably get them for the rest of the week.

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I also had to do some shopping and so I caved and bought this guy…I know, it’s really bad. I wish Kentucky had Polar Sparkling Water in all of the convenience stores like Pittsfield did. It’s the one thing I miss.

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I came home and had some kale with 1/2 an avocado, dulse, and Annie’s lite Goddess Dressing

For dinner I decided on pasta, and to cut out the calories because I was hurting for them, I spiralized some zucchini and yellow squash. Added some seasonings along with some Trader Joe’s marinara sauce and some vegan meatballs (Whole Foods brand). It was awesome. I love squash, so I know that had to account for some of the love but the sauce and meatballs were excellent- I hadn’t tried either before. It was a good spur of the moment meal.

Later I caved and had a sandwich with Jason’s chocolate hazelnut spread on it. I didn’t have the calories, and didn’t need it, but I’ve been having a hard time keeping my cravings in check.

weigh ins. waking up early. goal journals.

It is currently 6:57 am on a Monday.

I have already had coffee, eaten breakfast, working on finishing my first glass of water, and updated MyFitnessPal with not only breakfast but the lunch I have sitting in the fridge.

It is 6:57.

I can’t really believe it either.

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I wrote that on a Monday morning and I failed to post it. Or even finish what I was going to say in the post.

BECAUSE IT WAS 6:57 IN THE MORNING

I try so hard to be a morning person, and yet I fail so bad.

I’ve been thinking about the blog, cause I do that a lot. I love posting, but only if I have something to post about and usually I don’t have anything to post because I’m lame and live a boring life. So then I don’t. And then I forget to post when I actually do have something to post. It’s a vicious cycle, really. I am making steps to change that. To challenge myself, I’m starting a schedule of posts. I know, shocking. I like to think of it as a reoccurring writing prompt for me (much like livejournal did back in the day “Write about your funniest school experience”). If I have a schedule of things to post about, I will post about them. And then I’ll write more, because quite frankly that needs to happen. I was such a good writer in high school, where has that gone?

So, without further ado…a list! Because I love lists.

Sundays:

-Weigh In days. I always weigh in on a Sunday. If I forget to, I can’t bring myself to step on the scale till the next Sunday. It’s a crazy OCD habit, but at least I don’t get on the scale every day obsessively. So, Sundays, you get my weigh-ins

-On top of that, I will reflect on the past week and look on at the next. Or something like that. Or probably just talk about if I’m happy or sad about the weigh in

Wednesdays:

-What I Ate Wednesday <~ Yes this is happening STARTING TOMORROW. I know, I’m so clever and original and nobody has ever done a WIAW. I like them, and I don’t have the energy nor the want to keep up with a posting of all my food every day sort of thing. One day a week I can manage.

Fridays:

-Recipes/Food! I already semi started this one, I just haven’t continued it. The past couple of recipe blogs happened on a Friday. It was intentional and I figured, why not keep it up. I also love writing down awesome things I make because then I can make it again at the same awesomeness level and not just what my brain “thinks” was awesome before. It’s a win-win for both of us, really.

So that’s my schedule. I’ll post other random things in and around those days. I’ve been doing this first bite thing on my Youtube, so maybe I’ll incorporate that into reviews, but right now this is where it’s at.

And to finish up the content that the title of this post eludes to that I couldn’t bring myself to accomplish before 7am:

I weighed in 10 lbs less than when I left for the summer, and started one day of a goal journal that I have since given up on. Oh, my life.

road trips. updates. almond milk.

I’m alive! And back in Louisville!

I can’t even begin to express how awesome it is to be back home. I have my own bed, and my own things. Bathrooms and kitchens I don’t have to share. If there is a mess it’s because of me, not other people. It’s pretty fantastic. I have a couple of more days before I have to go back to work, so I’ve been enjoying the mini break. I’ve been able to sleep, which hands down is the best thing in the world. There were a couple of 8:00am-3:30am no breaks days towards the end of my contract…those were deadly. I was sick, and I hated everyone. I couldn’t think clearly and things just took longer. But not anymore!

I posted a video on my channel about what I ate on my journey back. I missed some things, and it definitely wasn’t healthy, but I figured someone might get at least something out of it. Maybe see a snack that could be a new find? I love those kinds of videos myself, so I figured I would do it. I also desperately missed making videos. I’ve already made a couple of more and have tons of ideas. I love the process and I love learning more about editing and different ways to create what I want.

I also love how making videos motivates me to keep on track. This summer really taught me that the two things I have to be consistent about on my journey are videos and tracking food. Without those I fail. And that’s what I did. Now, don’t get me wrong, during the summer I had a really great streak where I know I lost a ton of weight. I was happy, I could move more, I fit into clothes I never dreamed I would…and then not tracking and not keeping myself in check took a toll. I stopped eating well, or regularly (which is one of the top reasons I gain weight: skipping meals. I know it’s unbelievable that not eating will make you gain, but it does. Trust me.). I stopped drinking water as much as I should. I stopped being active, or sleeping well. And I gained. I don’t know how much because I am still as much OCD about Sunday weigh-ins as ever, but those clothes I once fit in didn’t.

That is changing. Already I’m in the right direction. I’m bringing back weigh-ins (and random videos), I’m sleeping more, I’m tracking. I’m doing everything right. I can’t let the setbacks hinder what I have already done, and that’s what I’m going to do.

Before the summer I had a couple of goals:

  • Track all food
  • Wear my FitBit every day

Did I do those? Absolutely not. The FitBit was a little out of my hands for the most part. I had to use my laptop in a show, this laptop being the only thing to sync or charge the FitBit and so that took an abrupt nose dive. Tracking I could have done, I had my phone and internet everywhere I went. I just got lazy and didn’t. Some parts of the summer were so stressful that the added MyFitnessPal update really wasn’t something I could do, but I knew not doing it would effect me. So goals this summer fell through, and it’s going to be ok.

I’m going to leave this semi-update with a picture of this glorious almond milk I have fallen in love with. I bought it on a whim at Whole Foods. It’s originally almost $4.50 a bottle but was on sale for the $3ish…the same as their store brand. I thought I would be smart and purchase it at the price because “What harm could it do?”

What harm? How about be the most amazing almond milk I have ever had and am probably going to be addicted. And will be spending all my money on this expensive almond milk. Deliciously expensive. Califia Farms, why did you do this to poor broke me?

almond milk