what i at wednesday: august 28th edition

Yesterday was a better day than I have been in terms of eating, but still wasn’t the greatest.

I started out with some coffee at work, which I had more because of necessity than want. I don’t have any creamer there so it was just sugar and coffee. More importantly it was warm. And my hands were numb because I work with 98.9% boys and the only areas air conditioned are the offices. So when you are sitting at your desk looking for the exact model of TV that was in MLK’s hotel (we are doing a production of The Mountaintop) it gets cold. Like really cold. Then you forget and go outside and instantly sweat because it’s like 90 degrees out.

I also had some water throughout the day in my trusty LIfefactory glass bottle.

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For lunch I had a bag of Ruffles from the vending machine, a Diet Dr Pepper, my favorite Amy’s burrito (the spinach tofu wrap), and some green beans I swiped from Karl…well, I say swiped and really he gave them to me because he grew a lot and was sick of them. They were fantastic by the way, and knowing Karl I’ll probably get them for the rest of the week.

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I also had to do some shopping and so I caved and bought this guy…I know, it’s really bad. I wish Kentucky had Polar Sparkling Water in all of the convenience stores like Pittsfield did. It’s the one thing I miss.

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I came home and had some kale with 1/2 an avocado, dulse, and Annie’s lite Goddess Dressing

For dinner I decided on pasta, and to cut out the calories because I was hurting for them, I spiralized some zucchini and yellow squash. Added some seasonings along with some Trader Joe’s marinara sauce and some vegan meatballs (Whole Foods brand). It was awesome. I love squash, so I know that had to account for some of the love but the sauce and meatballs were excellent- I hadn’t tried either before. It was a good spur of the moment meal.

Later I caved and had a sandwich with Jason’s chocolate hazelnut spread on it. I didn’t have the calories, and didn’t need it, but I’ve been having a hard time keeping my cravings in check.


weigh ins. waking up early. goal journals.

It is currently 6:57 am on a Monday.

I have already had coffee, eaten breakfast, working on finishing my first glass of water, and updated MyFitnessPal with not only breakfast but the lunch I have sitting in the fridge.

It is 6:57.

I can’t really believe it either.


I wrote that on a Monday morning and I failed to post it. Or even finish what I was going to say in the post.


I try so hard to be a morning person, and yet I fail so bad.

I’ve been thinking about the blog, cause I do that a lot. I love posting, but only if I have something to post about and usually I don’t have anything to post because I’m lame and live a boring life. So then I don’t. And then I forget to post when I actually do have something to post. It’s a vicious cycle, really. I am making steps to change that. To challenge myself, I’m starting a schedule of posts. I know, shocking. I like to think of it as a reoccurring writing prompt for me (much like livejournal did back in the day “Write about your funniest school experience”). If I have a schedule of things to post about, I will post about them. And then I’ll write more, because quite frankly that needs to happen. I was such a good writer in high school, where has that gone?

So, without further ado…a list! Because I love lists.


-Weigh In days. I always weigh in on a Sunday. If I forget to, I can’t bring myself to step on the scale till the next Sunday. It’s a crazy OCD habit, but at least I don’t get on the scale every day obsessively. So, Sundays, you get my weigh-ins

-On top of that, I will reflect on the past week and look on at the next. Or something like that. Or probably just talk about if I’m happy or sad about the weigh in


-What I Ate Wednesday <~ Yes this is happening STARTING TOMORROW. I know, I’m so clever and original and nobody has ever done a WIAW. I like them, and I don’t have the energy nor the want to keep up with a posting of all my food every day sort of thing. One day a week I can manage.


-Recipes/Food! I already semi started this one, I just haven’t continued it. The past couple of recipe blogs happened on a Friday. It was intentional and I figured, why not keep it up. I also love writing down awesome things I make because then I can make it again at the same awesomeness level and not just what my brain “thinks” was awesome before. It’s a win-win for both of us, really.

So that’s my schedule. I’ll post other random things in and around those days. I’ve been doing this first bite thing on my Youtube, so maybe I’ll incorporate that into reviews, but right now this is where it’s at.

And to finish up the content that the title of this post eludes to that I couldn’t bring myself to accomplish before 7am:

I weighed in 10 lbs less than when I left for the summer, and started one day of a goal journal that I have since given up on. Oh, my life.

road trips. updates. almond milk.

I’m alive! And back in Louisville!

I can’t even begin to express how awesome it is to be back home. I have my own bed, and my own things. Bathrooms and kitchens I don’t have to share. If there is a mess it’s because of me, not other people. It’s pretty fantastic. I have a couple of more days before I have to go back to work, so I’ve been enjoying the mini break. I’ve been able to sleep, which hands down is the best thing in the world. There were a couple of 8:00am-3:30am no breaks days towards the end of my contract…those were deadly. I was sick, and I hated everyone. I couldn’t think clearly and things just took longer. But not anymore!

I posted a video on my channel about what I ate on my journey back. I missed some things, and it definitely wasn’t healthy, but I figured someone might get at least something out of it. Maybe see a snack that could be a new find? I love those kinds of videos myself, so I figured I would do it. I also desperately missed making videos. I’ve already made a couple of more and have tons of ideas. I love the process and I love learning more about editing and different ways to create what I want.

I also love how making videos motivates me to keep on track. This summer really taught me that the two things I have to be consistent about on my journey are videos and tracking food. Without those I fail. And that’s what I did. Now, don’t get me wrong, during the summer I had a really great streak where I know I lost a ton of weight. I was happy, I could move more, I fit into clothes I never dreamed I would…and then not tracking and not keeping myself in check took a toll. I stopped eating well, or regularly (which is one of the top reasons I gain weight: skipping meals. I know it’s unbelievable that not eating will make you gain, but it does. Trust me.). I stopped drinking water as much as I should. I stopped being active, or sleeping well. And I gained. I don’t know how much because I am still as much OCD about Sunday weigh-ins as ever, but those clothes I once fit in didn’t.

That is changing. Already I’m in the right direction. I’m bringing back weigh-ins (and random videos), I’m sleeping more, I’m tracking. I’m doing everything right. I can’t let the setbacks hinder what I have already done, and that’s what I’m going to do.

Before the summer I had a couple of goals:

  • Track all food
  • Wear my FitBit every day

Did I do those? Absolutely not. The FitBit was a little out of my hands for the most part. I had to use my laptop in a show, this laptop being the only thing to sync or charge the FitBit and so that took an abrupt nose dive. Tracking I could have done, I had my phone and internet everywhere I went. I just got lazy and didn’t. Some parts of the summer were so stressful that the added MyFitnessPal update really wasn’t something I could do, but I knew not doing it would effect me. So goals this summer fell through, and it’s going to be ok.

I’m going to leave this semi-update with a picture of this glorious almond milk I have fallen in love with. I bought it on a whim at Whole Foods. It’s originally almost $4.50 a bottle but was on sale for the $3ish…the same as their store brand. I thought I would be smart and purchase it at the price because “What harm could it do?”

What harm? How about be the most amazing almond milk I have ever had and am probably going to be addicted. And will be spending all my money on this expensive almond milk. Deliciously expensive. Califia Farms, why did you do this to poor broke me?

almond milk





So, I’m really bad at updating this blog. I always have the intention and it never happens. Whether its because work is busy, it’s harder to type on the iPad, or just laziness I end up not posting as much as I want. But I think that’s ok, since most of the posts would be about how crazy work has been or something boring.

But today, I made the best sandwich in the world and I knew I had to share it. I fear I might now live off of this for the rest of the summer. And I think I’m ok with that.

You need:

Slice of garlic ciabatta bread
1/2 avocado
Some Treeline nut cheese (this is super expensive but INSANELY good. I could write love songs about it)
Portobello mushroom cap

Sauté onions, add caps and cook till tender. I like to steam mine by throwing some water in the pan and adding a lid on. Spread avocado and cheese on bread. Add mushroom and onions. Love life.

The best thing I’ve made here, hands down.

week of food: last day

Sorry this post is so late! I was almost perfect on my mission to capture my week of food…and then I screwed it up at the very last day. My camera battery was drained so I had to charge it, and then forgot about until today- Tuesday. Such is life. One thing is sure, I could never be like some of those other bloggers who photograph every single meal.

I started off the day with a banana and normal coffee


Then for “lunch” I had two servings of the kale butternut pasta that I made the night before:


And thus endeth my pictures. Yep in the last day I dropped the ball hard. In more ways than just no pictures. Here is the rundown  of the things I had for the rest of “night” (aka up until 7am):

  • 3 twice baked potatoes with butter, daiya, and a splash of milk. Only a tbsp of butter between the three, they were tiny potatoes (maybe at most 2 inches long) not normal baking potato sized
  • 1/2 a bottle of beer
  • 2 tortillas with daiya and avocado
  • Peanut butter sandwich
  • 1/2 a carton of So Delicious cookies and creme ice cream

I haven’t binged like that since first committing to this lifestyle at the beginning of the year. I was over 1,000 calories. Not even remotely good, at all. No exercise, just a horrible rut. I’ve been taking it pretty hard, and honestly it’s been hard staying on track the past two nights. Am I were I was 40+ pounds ago? Absolutely not. Before it would have been double that, and not a single of it weighed/portioned out. Even in these harder times I’m still portioning out 1/4 cup of daiya, or a tbsp of peanut butter. It’s still doesn’t help mentally though, but I can only take things day by day. I moved out of the 300’s. I’m not going back. Totals for the day: 2,656 calories, 1.036 calories over losing weight calories.

week of food: saturday

I spent most of the day watching a Bones marathon. I had recorded most of the season on my DVR and have yet to watch any of it, it was nice to not be running around doing other errands during the rainy day.

I started the day off with a normal cup of coffee, and a banana


I then used up the last of an avocado and put it on bread with dulse, along with Polar seltzer water. I really like the flavors on this seltzer water, but I can only find it at Earth Fare which is bit of a trek for me


I made a version of this recipe from EcoVeganGal for a kale butternut squash pasta. I’ve had it before, but did some things differently, and it was just as awesome. If you like butternut squash, you’ll love this. I’m probably going to put my version of the recipe up so you can see what I did differently. Both ways are fantastic. I had two servings


Later in the night (guess who went to bed at 7 am) I had what I’m calling as dinner. It was simple, 2 tortillas filled with a mixture of left over black beans, 1/2 an ounce of daiya, and about a tbsp of sour cream. One tortilla I put a romaine leaf on it.


I also worked out today! I did 40 minutes of the Wii Fit Plus that I found. I love that version so much more! I had been using the older version and I KNEW I was missing some of my favorite routines and I couldn’t for the life of me remember why. As soon as I turned this version on I realized why, they are all on that one! Wii Fit is a little annoying because you really have to plan out things. If you are in a time crunch, it’s not the best. When I say I did 40 minutes, that was 40 minutes of workout times. The switching through menus, listening to explanations, or just waiting for games to start take a chunk, and I was at if for at least an hour. Still, it’s better than nothing and for the days that I don’t wake up early enough to do outside things, this is a plus. I don’t have a gym membership (I think I will when I return) so this will have to do. Totals for the day: 1696 calories (-226 exercise calories) 150 under losing weight calories (1846= 1620+226).

week of food: friday

Happy rainy Derby day! I don’t really celebrate during Derby, but the town sure does. When I was little (in Florida) we used to have Derby parties every year. Grannie would send us plates/napkins/cups for the party, and I remember always having the best time. Now, even living all of a mile away from Churchill Downs, I don’t really do anything. I think if I were to do something, nothing will compare to those parties when I was little. I also rarely have money around this time since I’ve always just gone off contract. Not that I could afford a ticket to watch from a box/seat, but even the infield with all it’s muddy-drunken-college-party-ness is still pretty steep. I’m also conflicted about it morally. But enough about Derby, on with the post!

The day started out early than most, but later still then I wanted to. I have been loving this popcorn that I have been making lately so I had that. I just airpopped 2 tbsps of kernals and added nutritional yeast, salt, pepper, and garlic powder. I sometimes switch it up and add more seasonings, but this is the standard. The nutritional yeast gives it a yummy cheesy taste (while adding some B12 and protein). I used cooking spray to lightly coat the popcorn to get the seasonings to stick. Depending on the oil (I never count things like cooking sprays, no matter how much I use. It hasn’t hurt my progress yet), it’s about 100 calories and super filling.


I got hungry a little bit later but wasn’t in the mood to make anything, so I had a repeat of the other day with a hummus tray. I used new crackers that I bought at Trader Joe’s, but even the spinach hummus didn’t help their taste so I only ended eating about half of what is shown.


I also had a banana (I like mine green)


And then I tried the kiwi lime flavor of Mama Chia, which I loved, while watching a marathon of Bones.


For dinner I had rice, beans and vegetables. Before I was vegan, I was really into mixing rice and beans with alfredo sauce. I kind of did a variation of that in this meal instead using the Tofutti sour cream. The veggies were two things that were starting to go bad, spinach and mushrooms, and I added a small onion to the mix. The rice is a quinoa blend. I had two spinach wraps with it. It was fantastic, and I really didn’t need the wraps. Calorie wise, I wish I hadn’t had it because it would have made the entire meal under 500 calories. I’m working on my quantities, but sometimes I’m still off. I think that’s why I’m doing well in calorie counting, though. I haven’t had the shock of drastically limiting my quantities and then crashing and gaining all the weight back. With counting, I just splurge on some things, and cut back on the others and then gradually reduce. It also lets me realize that being at my weight I have to eat more calories than someone else losing weight who is smaller, and that is ok.


I also had some tea (like normal) and some oatmeal. I was really munchie towards the end of the night. Instead of taking a picture of the bowl I took a picture of the packages.


I didn’t picture it, but I had a glass of dark chocolate almond milk.

I also didn’t picture it, and in being entirely honest with myself, last night was bad. I had insomnia again (the worst it’s been all this week) and I ended up splurging later in the night and having a peanut butter sandwich. It could have been worse, and had something not as nutritional, but the bread I have is pretty high in calorie so it ended up being a 400 calorie “midnight” (aka 5am) snack. I know that if I had been asleep it wouldn’t have happened, but there you go. So, instead of being of being just 4 calories over my losing weight goal, I was over 400. Totals: 2,029 calories.

I did find that I have Wii Fit Plus, I had thought I only owned the older version (I “inherited” the system from my parents who never used it) so that was one positive of last nights insomnia.