It’s been about a year since I posted on this blog. Whoops.
Well, really not whoops. I intentionally left this blog to post on my tumblr page exclusively, thinking that I would post more there. I didn’t. Story of my life, right? Well, what I didn’t realize is that I just left this blog hanging. No goodbye. No telling where I was. I up and left. Please forgive me? To make it up I’ve decided to start posting again! Yay!
So here’s the basic (really super quick) rundown of what’s been going on lately: I left Heritage at 284 lbs (yay!) and by the time I left Actors for the season I was bouncing from 310 to 301 (boo!). After two weekends of massive amounts of awesome home cooked meals in two different states, and the combination of doing nothing but packing up the apartment I somehow managed to get up to 325. The highest I have ever seen on the scale.
And then I had myself a nice little crying-depressive fest for about a day. Reavulated my life (which apparently I like to do five million times) and decided to suck it up and keep going forward. So I started tracking my calories again on the iPhone app MyFitnessPal, which is so much more amazing than LoseIt I can’t even describe, I started moving my butt. Light yoga for 45 min here and there (so light it was basically stretching), pushups, walking, 10 minutes of Jullian Michael’s 30 Day Shred (because I couldn’t do all 20 minutes of it without wanting to throw up) and low and behold even after eating an entire bag of chips in two days I lost a massive amount of weight.
I am currently, as of this morning’s weigh-in, 311.4. I didn’t in no terms do anything that should warrant that amount of weight loss, except that if I ate an entire bag of goldfish I tracked it and didn’t eat more for the day or I just burned enough calories to be in my range (per the app) so I wasn’t over. I know by personal experience the first week I always lose a ton of weight so I wasn’t too surprised. Being as overweight as I am also helps.
Let me tell you, this is what I needed. I’m sore, and a tad bit hungry (still getting my stomach used to the whole eating less) but I feel so ridiculously accomplished that I want to do this again. And again. And again. I have not felt that way in about a year. Honestly, I kept telling myself that I wanted to over and over. Even announcing to the world that I wanted to, and yet I didn’t do a thing. Then, one day while thinking that I wasn’t going to fit into my bridesmaid dress for the wedding I’m in I bit the bullet and did it.
Starting over is hard. Extremely hard. Yet I’m doing it. And I couldn’t be more happier. I’m taking it one day at a time. I’m not at all perfect by any means. My only concern is to move a little, and watch my calories. At this stage, once I get better at that then I’ll progress more into balanced food plans, and working on going back to the as-natural-as-possible plan I had when I started. I’ve realized that rushing too much into something is bad, and eventually leads to failure. Easing myself into getting used to a different lifestyle proves to be better in the long run, and helps me accomplish my goals. Little baby steps are the only way to go.
Along with this saga in my life, I’m reviving this blog. It helped a lot, and I can’t let me being lazy about blogging in it let me stop myself from uploading here. I am keeping my tumblr along with this for the purposes I had intended in the begining (being able to upload on the spot with not much more than two buttons of work) but for my longer posts, this place is going to be it. I might use this also as a space to follow along in my other passions and life. I mean, the blog title has “life” in it, what better than use it for things I do in my life. Weight loss isn’t, and shouldn’t, be everything.
I think you’ll be seeing a lot more of me in the future.