….sorry.

It’s been about a year since I posted on this blog. Whoops.

Well, really not whoops. I intentionally left this blog to post on my tumblr page exclusively, thinking that I would post more there. I didn’t. Story of my life, right? Well, what I didn’t realize is that I just left this blog hanging. No goodbye. No telling where I was. I up and left. Please forgive me? To make it up I’ve decided to start posting again! Yay!

So here’s the basic (really super quick) rundown of what’s been going on lately: I left Heritage at 284 lbs (yay!) and by the time I left Actors for the season I was bouncing from 310 to 301 (boo!). After two weekends of massive amounts of awesome home cooked meals in two different states, and the combination of doing nothing but packing up the apartment I somehow managed to get up to 325. The highest I have ever seen on the scale.

And then I had myself a nice little crying-depressive fest for about a day. Reavulated my life (which apparently I like to do five million times) and decided to suck it up and keep going forward. So I started tracking my calories again on the iPhone app MyFitnessPal, which is so much more amazing than LoseIt I can’t even describe, I started moving my butt. Light yoga for 45 min here and there (so light it was basically stretching), pushups, walking, 10 minutes of Jullian Michael’s 30 Day Shred (because I couldn’t do all 20 minutes of it without wanting to throw up) and low and behold even after eating an entire bag of chips in two days I lost a massive amount of weight.

I am currently, as of this morning’s weigh-in, 311.4. I didn’t in no terms do anything that should warrant that amount of weight loss, except that if I ate an entire bag of goldfish I tracked it and didn’t eat more for the day or I just burned enough calories to be in my range (per the app) so I wasn’t over. I know by personal experience the first week I always lose a ton of weight so I wasn’t too surprised. Being as overweight as I am also helps.

Let me tell you, this is what I needed. I’m sore, and a tad bit hungry (still getting my stomach used to the whole eating less) but I feel so ridiculously accomplished that I want to do this again. And again. And again. I have not felt that way in about a year. Honestly, I kept telling myself that I wanted to over and over. Even announcing to the world that I wanted to, and yet I didn’t do a thing. Then, one day while thinking that I wasn’t going to fit into my bridesmaid dress for the wedding I’m in I bit the bullet and did it.

Starting over is hard. Extremely hard. Yet I’m doing it. And I couldn’t be more happier. I’m taking it one day at a time. I’m not at all perfect by any means. My only concern is to move a little, and watch my calories. At this stage, once I get better at that then I’ll progress more into balanced food plans, and working on going back to the as-natural-as-possible plan I had when I started. I’ve realized that rushing too much into something is bad, and eventually leads to failure. Easing myself into getting used to a different lifestyle proves to be better in the long run, and helps me accomplish my goals. Little baby steps are the only way to go.

Along with this saga in my life, I’m reviving this blog. It helped a lot, and I can’t let me being lazy about blogging in it let me stop myself from uploading here. I am keeping my tumblr along with this for the purposes I had intended in the begining (being able to upload on the spot with not much more than two buttons of work) but for my longer posts, this place is going to be it. I might use this also as a space to follow along in my other passions and life. I mean, the blog title has “life” in it, what better than use it for things I do in my life. Weight loss isn’t, and shouldn’t, be everything.

I think you’ll be seeing a lot more of me in the future.

Until then…

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Weigh-In #1

This week has been ridiculously, amazingly, perfect in terms of my eating and getting water in. There were a couple of days were I went a bit under calories that I was comfortable with, but for the most part I had a good balance of everything. I was definitely “Below the Yellow Line” for the entire week (which starts on Mondays for me). Here’s the stats from LoseIt!:

Exercise accounted for 673 of those calories (my goal calories, or the yellow line, is set at 2,117)

The smallest victory in the entire week was on Thursday when I refused free delivery pizza for the more sensible option of couscous. It helped to since I currently have nothing in the way of lunch making items till next pay day, so the entirety of my lunches have to be leftovers. I diligently measured out everything from butter to oil to even the low cal vegetables. If I’m going to do it for one thing, I have to continue it for all so that I begin to develop a habit of it. If you’ve never tried measuring out everything to exact portions, do it! It may be tedious at first, but you really do develop a rhythm and it’s incredible at making you focus on what you really want to “pay” for in terms of calories. It helps keep my portions control (which I desperately need) and I’m so more willing to only put in a portion of an item I might have put in, in some cases, well over 5 servings of for a one serving thing. It’s shocking, but puts everything into perspective. I would even say that this alone is more of a key to weight loss than journaling everything (although I combine the two).

Every Sunday I am going to be weighing myself and I think I’m finally ok with putting the results in the blog. I need to record it, and since I’m relying heavily on this blog for that, it just needs to happen. I can’t get around it anymore

I have a Biggest Loser Scale that I can’t for the life of me remember what model it is, and don’t really want to check. If you want to know, just leave a comment. I go it over the summer because my mom is obsessed with QVC. That means I get nice presents because they are on “sale” which really means “I want to buy one for myself, but feel bad so I’ll buy a second one for my daughter”. I can’t really complain, it’s a win-win situation ☺ I also use this awesome app on my iPhone that is really only awesome because of the sound effects on it. It’s called Weightbot. I think it’s around $1.99.

My starting weight last Sunday was 314.8 and this week I am at:

That means I am down 9lbs!

I really don’t know for sure why I’m down that much. I knew I was going to be down a pretty good amount because every time I start losing weight, I do drop a good amount my first week (when I first started Weight Watchers in high school I dropped about 5-6 lbs the first week). I do know of some causes of why I’m down as much, so the number may be misleading:-I am considerably heavier than I was in high school, and I do think that it could play a part in losing weight more quickly.

  • I’m much more heavier than I was in high school
  • I’m on my period, and that could lead to weird numbers
  • I have worked out 3 times this week as opposed to nothing the weeks before.
  • This week has been more stressful than most. I’ve been worrying a lot about the show coming up and the stress has been effecting me, most nights I’m up until 2 am just thinking about it and worrying.

I feel the combination of all those things lead to such a great loss. I’m not too worried though, if I was smaller this number might scare me, but I am at a number in my weight that it’s really only going to effect me for the good. I hope that next week’s weigh-in will be in a more normal range. I feel good about this week, though. I went to the gym, yet didn’t push myself to the point of no harm (I maybe even slacked off a bit), I ate enough till I was full, and drank the right amount of water. Those things I am proud of.