costco. overnight oats. snacks.

The first thing I need to address: did you know that Costco’s brand of shampoo and conditioner are vegan? Seriously, best day of my life.

And yes, I did go to Costco again this week. I may be slightly obsessed.

The real reason I wanted to write a post (besides my endless want to get better at being regular about updating this blog) is to talk about my What I Ate Wednesday. Because it was really good. I ate a lot of really great stuff and I want to look back at this post as a reminder, a motivator, that eating healthy is awesome and delicious because I still need to remind myself of that when I stray and cave into cravings.

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I started out the day with some green tea with lemon and sugar. I used to drink this almost every morning, and for some reason when it gets hot out I gravitate to coffee. The mornings have been kind of cold, but cold enough that tea is wanted.

I also made a really awesome overnight oats jar.

It’s super simple:

  • 1/4cup of raw oats
  • ~1/8th of a cup of almond milk
  • 1 Silk Fruity and Creamy soy vanilla yogurt cup (my new love!)
  • strawberries
  • raspberries

Throw it all together and put it in the fridge for the night. The oats soak up all the liquids and it has a cake batter type taste to it. I like it much more than I like regular oatmeal.

I had some coffee with Silk creamer while I was at my desk Photoshopping. The guys leave the a/c on a ridiculous temp so when I sit at my desk for a while Photoshopping I get cold.

For our mid-day break, I had some of Trader Joe’s nut mix that I had per-portioned out into small Tupperware cups.

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Lunch was my new favorite. I had a mixed greens salad with avocado, grape tomatoes, and raspberry vinaigrette I got at Whole Foods which is probably one of the best dressings I’ve had and it’s only 45 calories a serving. I had a serving of the Earth Balance cheese puffs, an apple, and the only bad thing: Diet Dr Pepper. Please don’t judge, I know. I know.

Second break I had a banana. I met and exceeded my fruit quota for the day.

Dinner was roasted spaghetti squash. Super simple, I just halved the squash and put 1/2 tbsp of Earth Balance garlic and herb spread on both sides, added salt and pepper, and some minced garlic and roasted until soft. I mixed it up with some sauteed mushrooms.

It was a really good day.

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road trips. updates. almond milk.

I’m alive! And back in Louisville!

I can’t even begin to express how awesome it is to be back home. I have my own bed, and my own things. Bathrooms and kitchens I don’t have to share. If there is a mess it’s because of me, not other people. It’s pretty fantastic. I have a couple of more days before I have to go back to work, so I’ve been enjoying the mini break. I’ve been able to sleep, which hands down is the best thing in the world. There were a couple of 8:00am-3:30am no breaks days towards the end of my contract…those were deadly. I was sick, and I hated everyone. I couldn’t think clearly and things just took longer. But not anymore!

I posted a video on my channel about what I ate on my journey back. I missed some things, and it definitely wasn’t healthy, but I figured someone might get at least something out of it. Maybe see a snack that could be a new find? I love those kinds of videos myself, so I figured I would do it. I also desperately missed making videos. I’ve already made a couple of more and have tons of ideas. I love the process and I love learning more about editing and different ways to create what I want.

I also love how making videos motivates me to keep on track. This summer really taught me that the two things I have to be consistent about on my journey are videos and tracking food. Without those I fail. And that’s what I did. Now, don’t get me wrong, during the summer I had a really great streak where I know I lost a ton of weight. I was happy, I could move more, I fit into clothes I never dreamed I would…and then not tracking and not keeping myself in check took a toll. I stopped eating well, or regularly (which is one of the top reasons I gain weight: skipping meals. I know it’s unbelievable that not eating will make you gain, but it does. Trust me.). I stopped drinking water as much as I should. I stopped being active, or sleeping well. And I gained. I don’t know how much because I am still as much OCD about Sunday weigh-ins as ever, but those clothes I once fit in didn’t.

That is changing. Already I’m in the right direction. I’m bringing back weigh-ins (and random videos), I’m sleeping more, I’m tracking. I’m doing everything right. I can’t let the setbacks hinder what I have already done, and that’s what I’m going to do.

Before the summer I had a couple of goals:

  • Track all food
  • Wear my FitBit every day

Did I do those? Absolutely not. The FitBit was a little out of my hands for the most part. I had to use my laptop in a show, this laptop being the only thing to sync or charge the FitBit and so that took an abrupt nose dive. Tracking I could have done, I had my phone and internet everywhere I went. I just got lazy and didn’t. Some parts of the summer were so stressful that the added MyFitnessPal update really wasn’t something I could do, but I knew not doing it would effect me. So goals this summer fell through, and it’s going to be ok.

I’m going to leave this semi-update with a picture of this glorious almond milk I have fallen in love with. I bought it on a whim at Whole Foods. It’s originally almost $4.50 a bottle but was on sale for the $3ish…the same as their store brand. I thought I would be smart and purchase it at the price because “What harm could it do?”

What harm? How about be the most amazing almond milk I have ever had and am probably going to be addicted. And will be spending all my money on this expensive almond milk. Deliciously expensive. Califia Farms, why did you do this to poor broke me?

almond milk

 

weigh-in #40. exercise. keek.

I am officially under 300 lbs! AHHHH.

I woke up insanely late today, but that was followed by the joyous news that I was 299.6 which is a loss of 2.6 lbs from last week! I am through the roof excited about this. I thought for sure I was going to gain this week. I made the mistake of letting my stomach overpower my head and picked up some bread from the bakery at Kroger. It was gone in two days. Ugh. It was a struggle to keep on track but I did it. Not my finest week eating wise, but I still did something right with that loss, and my eating is far from what it used to be. For that, I’m thankful.

I’ve noticed a trend that it’s really hard to mentally get into things when new situations arise. This week was my first week of calorie counting and not being at work. I rely heavily on work for added movement and no downtime for mindless snacking (especially since going vegan, when someone brings in things like donuts or cake it’s easier to not eat it than before) but here I am at home with no money so I can’t really do things outside of the house to keep me occupied. This happened when MyFitnessPal moved me down in calories the first time. It was rough, but I just have to keep going. If I continue to push, I see results even if I’m not perfect.

I worked out almost every day this week, and I know that helped. A lot. I’ve been loving going to the park and pushing myself to run farther, or walk faster, or go longer. I’ve also been just enjoying it too, and spending time people watching. I’m hoping to continue this trend. Tomorrow I’m going to try for my farthest walk yet: 4 miles. 2.50 miles (which is my loop at Cherokee) is easy. And I’ve walked 3+ miles just as easily (especially when not worrying about pace). I figured it would be a good push.

I’m still going to work on my run/walks. I think it’s a nice push to the workout, and I think it’s good training. I want to begin working on the Couch to 5K program, and I have an app on my iPhone for that, but right now I think it would be a fairly hard, and with leaving for Massachusetts soon I don’t want to start the program and not be able to complete it. I do think that it will be easier once I start if I continue doing the walk/runs so that’s a positive. In a perfect world, I’ll be able to start the plan in Massachusetts. I’ve never been to the theatre, nor the area so I have no clue if that is in the plans. Summer stock is intense, but some theatres are more than others so there is no way I can plan ahead with things.

One thing I have also been doing which I think is fun, is posting on Keek. I had an account for a while and did nothing but look at others videos on it. This past week I started posting on it after workouts. It’s kind of neat, because it’s my true feelings/thoughts after a workout (most have been in my car before leaving) and it’s short and sweet. You only have 36 seconds to upload for Keek. I think I’ll definitely be continuing using it after workouts as a mini visual workout journal.

weightloss. 10,00 steps challenge.

Hi! So yesterday was weigh-in, and I lost 5.4lbs. Huzzah! I was totally not expecting that at all. I did poorly at the beginning of the week with my calories, but I guess towards the end of the week with pretty solid calories and the combination of doing a lot of putting away in stock, I ended up with that loss. I also think that the last two weeks being somewhat a maintain was sort of a carry over for me for that loss. At any rate, I’m super excited about it. I weighed in on MyFitnessPal and I am now down to a new lower calorie limit. We’ll see how this week goes with that change.

I am now at 312, which the last record I have at that weight was March 3, 2011. Although that is disheartening, I can only look to the future. I notice every day that my body is changing. Pants don’t fit any more, I walk more quickly, am willing to do more things. I am much more conscious about the things that I eat, and my portions (which is the biggest thing for me). I am starting to feel really good, and I think that is all that really matters.

I also decided that since my hectic Humana days are over I need to up the exercise and I decided to do that with something that can be fairly easy for me: a 10,000 steps challenge. I’m wearing my FitBit every day this week and I want to accomplish 10,000 steps every day. What’s great is that I have a bunch of leeway with that challenge. I could end up doing 10,000 steps at work, and then I won’t have to do anything elsewhere. But if I don’t, I need to make up for it somehow. Whether it is going for a walk, or walking around my house.

Today, as of 8pm, I have a little over 8,000 steps. I’m worried that today might not be a good day to start this challenge and then fail. I tried hard, but I didn’t really factor in that it would be Spring and snowing outside. I did go over to the grocery store and walk the aisles to try to make up for it, and to stay indoors, but it’s a little hairy now. I’ve been kind of cleaning around the house, so we’ll see at Midnight what happens. Here’s hoping for the best!

weightloss, documentaries, and veganism.

Yesterday was weigh-in and I lost 2 lbs! I was super, no good, very bad, this week calorie wise though. The only explanation I have from the loss is the fact that during the day during those bad times I was super on point with calories, and I think a combination of that and my body needing more calories from work (overtime + doing exercise-type jobs like scrapping wine labels off of bottles for 2 hours straight) helped even out everything. Don’t get me wrong, I love the loss, but those days of binging are not good. At all. I need to work on that this week (hello, broken record Jessie. Remember saying that last week?) and get back to eating healthier foods.

On the healthier foods point, I spent all of my Sunday doing nothing but laundry and in the glorious trap that is Netflix instant queue. More specifically: the documentaries. I love watching them, I always get inspired and learn new things. It was a nice way to veg out and not do anything that was work. I ended up watching a series of documentaries: Vegucated, No Impact Man, and Forks Over Knives.

It’s no secret that I have been wanting to go vegan for a while. Years ago I thought it wasn’t something I could do. I was also kind of scared. What if I mess up? What if people judge me because I’m fat and I’m vegan? For years I’ve been a vegetarian (and most of my life semi-vegetarian), and it wasn’t really hard for me. It was hard when I would come to struggles like dining hall food in college, or instant cravings for food of the fast food variety, but other than that it was easy. I like vegetables, I like vegetarian foods, I enjoy the impact I have in terms of animal rights. Hell, I even eat most meals vegan. But for the past couple of years, something in my gut always told me that wasn’t enough.

I’m not going to stand on a soapbox and say that eating animal products is bad and that you are monster if you do. I think everyone has to decide what’s right for them, and at least hear the other person’s side on why it is important to them. In my heart I knew that just giving up meat wasn’t enough. I knew about what was happening in the dairy and egg farms, and by eating those products I was still hurting animals.

So, for the past year I have been slowly fazing out animal products in favor of vegan alternatives (or something completely different). I still ate cheese from time to time, and had things like yogurt or cottage cheese. I didn’t even think about it when I was out at meals, it was hardly ever vegan. I wasn’t super awesome about checking product labels, so things like bread would normally not be vegan. Frozen items generally had cheese. Then, a couple of months (maybe more?) I thought about fully switching over. I wrote a post about it, possibly on Tumblr? I wanted to do it slowly and finally get there.

If there is anything I can say about my life is that doing things “slowly” doesn’t work out for me. I have to just up and do it. No ifs, ands, or buts. Just do it. I wanted to stop biting my nails? I just do it. I wanted to learn how to tie my shoe? Just did it. I wanted to give up red meat and pork when I was in middle school? Just did it. I wanted to start losing weight? After months (years) of me starting “slowly” it took one day for me just to pick up MyFitnessPal and just do it. And here I am, more than 20 pounds lighter.

Those documentaries really got to me, as they should, but also my heart got to me. I just can’t deal with that dread I feel inside. I’m not perfect, and never will be. That’s the beauty of ” just doing it”. There will always be set backs (hello last two weeks of high calorie days) but it’s the just do it mentality that gets past those upsets and continues on to the next day, afresh.

I’m going vegan.

I think I’ll be a lot happier in the long run.

 

weigh-in #30, car issues, and life issues

I weighed in today on both the old an new scale. There was about a 2 pound difference between the two, the old one weighing me at 329.4 and the new one at 327. The new scale did give me a couple of different read outs, and I was a bit worried but it seems ok. I think I’m extra paranoid now about things. I could have just kept with my old scale, but I couldn’t justify something that had to sit there for a week to calibrate. Now I’ll just use it as a backup should anything happen. I do love the new look of the new scale. It’s really¬† nice looking, and the blue-lit read out is so much easier to read. It also keeps the weight a while after I step off, which my old one never did.

No matter the number, it still a gain of 1.2. I am fine with this, I was horrible in calories for most of the week last week and I understand why I gained. I’m glad it was only that much, if I hadn’t tried desperately hard to fix it towards the end of the week it probably would have been more. I am surprised that I have kept tracking. Before in states like this, I would stop tracking. To “hide” the amount I had gone over, this is not one of those times and I am happy for this small improvement. It still doesn’t make it right, but I feel like I’m getting better.

That being said, today my awesome friend Braden came to help fix the car. We assumed it was just a dead battery and took it to AutoZone who tested it and confirmed it was dead. I got the new came back and installed it…and it still didn’t work. We tried other things, including jumping it and letting it run for a while but as soon as I put my foot on the brake it died. Needless to say, today is not ending on a good note. I fear having to tow it and get a huge bill that I can’t afford but it HAS to be fixed. It’s insanely essential for my job and it needs to get done.

I get paranoid about things that I haven’t had to do, and I’ve never once had to figure out what to do in this kind of situation. Do I call a tow place and get it sent to the Mazda dealership? Does Mazda have their own service? Do I pay for the tow seperatly? Do I have to be there when the tow comes of the shop? I don’t like not knowing, and I don’t like the fact that I might sound completely stupid about not knowing and that just stresses me out even more. My anxiety wants nothing more to not think of it and be done.

lent: 2013

I usually end up giving something up for Lent, and this year I’m kind of cheating. I have decided to give up soda. The reason I say “cheating”, is because I already kind of gave it up. I’m one of those people who would rather use calories to eat, rather than to drink so soda has naturally already kind of been eliminated in favor of zero calorie things like water and sparkling water. I don’t go out to eat much, and if I do it’s usually with a beer, but I want to work on this to help with any future temptation. I don’t like diet soda, except for diet Dr Pepper, and guess who’s work has that in the machine. I’ve already been tempted a couple of times because it’s there and there isn’t any calories. It’s a horrible habit, it’s nothing but chemicals and I really don’t want or need to be drinking it. Lent, even though I am not religious whatsoever, magically helps me sometimes so it’s worth a shot.

This week’s calories have been all sorts of crazy, and it’s only Wednesday. I fear the worst on Sunday, we’ll see. I’m really worried that I’m slipping up too much. I’ve done that before, and that’s when I gave up because I started giving up on myself. I’ve been super in check all day today, and have tried to do some recon on things and hopefully by the end of the week things will even out. I think partially is the fact that I went down 100 calories on MyFitnessPal. This shouldn’t be an issue for me, 1790 is what I’m averaging. But once it was a mandatory thing, I think my brain just freaked. I’m happy that I’m catching myself, but I’m still fearful of what tomorrow holds. I desperately don’t want to slip up too far. It’s scares me to think that I could.

The Filofax is still gorgeous, I’m still fixing it up though. I had trivia last night (Abita Mardi Gras Bock: AMAZING), so I haven’t had much time to do the stuff I want. Hopefully this weekend I can get it to were I want.