So, today was my weigh-in. It wasn’t pretty. I knew it was going to be horrible, I have been eating horrendously. I have a habit of being perfect, and on point with calories and food decisions up until dinner and blow it all on high calorie binges. This showed in the scale with around a 4 pound gain.
I’m not happy about it, I’m not excited. I am ashamed and saddened by it. But, life goes on and this is just a bump in the journey. I’m taking it one day at a time trying to turn it around, and I think that’s all I can do. I’ve also been doing things that I know motivate me. The one thing I can not let myself do is blame myself, to the point I worsen the damage. This is not the end of the world, it’s a gentle nudge to tell me to try harder.
I went to Whole Foods to stock up on things for the fridge. I haven’t really done a proper shop since I’ve come back (I was out of peanut butter and I didn’t even know it) and this was a good start with lots of things that are not only healthy, but have helped keep me in check in the past. I figured a good old grocery haul in image form would be fun, and lighten up the mood in this post.
- Califia Farms unsweetened almond milk
- Califia Farms vanilla almond milk <~ These were still on sale! So excited
- Tofutti sour cream
- Earth Balance
- Bulk popcorn kernels
- 365 ketchup
- 365 crunchy peanut butter
- Mediterranean leek and onion crackers
- Oasis roasted red pepper hummus
- Field Roast meatloaf
- Bulk nutritional yeast
- Grape tomatoes
- Snap/sugar peas
- Baby carrots
- Gala apples
I have a lot of pantry items to use and still have some kale and mushrooms from a previous trip, but this I know will help me start getting into a better routine and prepare better meals, along with healthier snacks.
Also, the splurge of the day goes to:
Isn’t she pretty? I loooove glass water bottles (not the price…) and I couldn’t resist because of the size (a whole 22 ounces) and the top. I have a smaller one of the Life Factory bottles with just the screw on top. I love it. It’s durable, the glass is so much easier to clean (and doesn’t start to do that weird scratching/cloudiness that bugs me) and I use it at work all the time. My only problem was the top. I need a water bottle that is a covered top (for safety reasons in the shop), but sometimes I don’t have two free hands so the top was always a nuisance. I think this is going to be the winner in all of my issues with the added bonus of a strap and more ounces. One of the things I’m pushing towards is drinking my water. Now I can leave this one at work, and take my old one home.
I am officially under 300 lbs! AHHHH.
I woke up insanely late today, but that was followed by the joyous news that I was 299.6 which is a loss of 2.6 lbs from last week! I am through the roof excited about this. I thought for sure I was going to gain this week. I made the mistake of letting my stomach overpower my head and picked up some bread from the bakery at Kroger. It was gone in two days. Ugh. It was a struggle to keep on track but I did it. Not my finest week eating wise, but I still did something right with that loss, and my eating is far from what it used to be. For that, I’m thankful.
I’ve noticed a trend that it’s really hard to mentally get into things when new situations arise. This week was my first week of calorie counting and not being at work. I rely heavily on work for added movement and no downtime for mindless snacking (especially since going vegan, when someone brings in things like donuts or cake it’s easier to not eat it than before) but here I am at home with no money so I can’t really do things outside of the house to keep me occupied. This happened when MyFitnessPal moved me down in calories the first time. It was rough, but I just have to keep going. If I continue to push, I see results even if I’m not perfect.
I worked out almost every day this week, and I know that helped. A lot. I’ve been loving going to the park and pushing myself to run farther, or walk faster, or go longer. I’ve also been just enjoying it too, and spending time people watching. I’m hoping to continue this trend. Tomorrow I’m going to try for my farthest walk yet: 4 miles. 2.50 miles (which is my loop at Cherokee) is easy. And I’ve walked 3+ miles just as easily (especially when not worrying about pace). I figured it would be a good push.
I’m still going to work on my run/walks. I think it’s a nice push to the workout, and I think it’s good training. I want to begin working on the Couch to 5K program, and I have an app on my iPhone for that, but right now I think it would be a fairly hard, and with leaving for Massachusetts soon I don’t want to start the program and not be able to complete it. I do think that it will be easier once I start if I continue doing the walk/runs so that’s a positive. In a perfect world, I’ll be able to start the plan in Massachusetts. I’ve never been to the theatre, nor the area so I have no clue if that is in the plans. Summer stock is intense, but some theatres are more than others so there is no way I can plan ahead with things.
One thing I have also been doing which I think is fun, is posting on Keek. I had an account for a while and did nothing but look at others videos on it. This past week I started posting on it after workouts. It’s kind of neat, because it’s my true feelings/thoughts after a workout (most have been in my car before leaving) and it’s short and sweet. You only have 36 seconds to upload for Keek. I think I’ll definitely be continuing using it after workouts as a mini visual workout journal.
It’s been a while since I have posted anything. I think this is a direct corralation to the fact that I posted my last weigh-in video really late this week. I had originally intended it for it to be up Tuesday night (when I filmed it) and didn’t realize till Thursday that it had failed. But, I made one! That’s at least some dedication right? I was originally going to do it on Sunday, per norm, but by the time my friend left it was later and I just didn’t feel like doing it. It was purely about laziness than anything else.
I gained .6 last week, which I knew had to be water weight/having had more carby-alcohol than normal close to weigh-in (but still in calories!)/and the arrival of my period that led to the gain. Even knowing this, sometimes it sucks to see the number on the scale go up when you know you’ve been doing excellent. I didn’t really let that get me down, and this past week I had a really awesome week. I went out for walks more, I stayed within calories, I ate relatively good foods, and it paid off. Big time.
This week I weighed in at 304.8 which is a loss of 7.8 lbs. Holy. Crap. You know what the beauty of this number is? I didn’t have to do all that much to attain it. I went for walks, and I ate food at normal portions/calories (my calories are set at 1700 on MyFitnessPal currently) and at normal times, and I didn’t dwell too hard about anything. When I wanted to walk, I walked. If I only wanted to do a mile, I just did a mile. If I was hungry I ate good snacks of fruits, vegetables, and nuts. It’s so inspiring to keep this up when it’s becoming so much more easier. I feel it in my body, and it gives me the confidence to just want to continue. I also have the energy too. It’s harder to do things weighing as much as I do, and just moving a little bit more each day it has led to increased motivation both mentally and physically to just keep doing it.
I am rational, and know that numbers like this directly relate to how overweight I am, and that it could get harder sooner than I think, I still love the way I’m starting to look, and knowing that getting below 300 is a very really possible in just a short time. My lowest weight recorded is 285.2. That was back on August 11th of 2010. Getting down to that is one of my first “goals” that I have had in the back of my head. And it’s so attainable.
It’s been a while since I posted here. Honestly, it’s been a little too hectic in my life to really sit down and write anything. I also really haven’t had anything to say, so that has prevented me from using my energy and free time to post anything of importance. I lost weight this past week, and am feeling really good. I had wanted to get into more of an exercise routine, but I realized after eating horribly a couple of times and still losing that my body is getting plenty of work just being at…well, work. If the past two days of my FitBit are any indication, I think you’ll agree that it’s for the best. I’ve been doing over 10,000 steps just at work alone. While it would be awesome to workout and do as much at work, it really doesn’t make sense to me right now. I don’t have as much free time to devote to it, and if I did I risk cutting into much needed down time and sickness. I can NOT get sick, so I’m doing what’s best for my body now. Once work slows out and I end the season exercise will need to be put back into my every day life. I tell ya, the best diet is the Humana Festival diet.
My vegan diet has been going swimmingly. I love it. It truly is like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. It’s not as hard as I thought it would be, which is even more reassuring that there can be success. That being said, I haven’t been faced with a restaurant or being somewhere where there is next to nothing in vegan choices, but for now it’s great. I really do love it, it’s been putting my mind at ease and I’ve been really creative when it comes to cooking and eating.
Tomorrow is my birthday. I will be 29. Eek! The time flies by so quickly. How am I almost 30? It’s so scary. My parent officially put their house for sale too. The picture of the “For Sale” post my mom sent me in e-mail threw me. I have to make it down during the summer before I don’t have another option too. Life is happening too quickly for me right now. It’s kind of overwhelming. But that’s how it goes, doesn’t it?
Even though those parts of life are going by fast, I’m enjoying my weightloss, my new found diet, and the energy I have regained. Those aspects only push me to know that I am in the right path, and I want to do everything I can to continue. I even synced my twitter account with my youtube. That’s huge for me, I’m a pretty private person (especially when it comes to people I actually know) so unlocking that one step was a huge turning point for me. Doing the videos and keeping up with the blog is helping me come out of my shell a little bit more. Babys steps, but I’m getting there
I feel like I haven’t posted in a very long time. It’s been quite a rough week. It started with getting my car finally fixed (thankfully not a terrible problem, and took no time to get it back) and between that, overtime and some personal issues I am quickly slipping. I’ve had some bad days in eating, and I really have been struggling to get out of that. I have been making better choices but still, eating a bag of chips is bad whether it’s regular Lays or Baked Kettle Chips. The calories may be considerably different, but it’s still not healthy. I see that slight hint at not going fully under very helpful that I am at least doing more than I would have in the past. This next week I’m going to be really working on it. I have to work a full day tomorrow, and then overtime the rest of the week so it’s going to be rough.
I have kept up with my self-imposed FitBit challenge. I only have missed one day, and that was because my ride came sooner than expected and I had to rush out the door. I had even remembered it and moved it to where I was dressing. Sadly it stayed behind and I realized a mile from my place. This is what the challenge is for though, to get into the habit of wearing it. I move more with it on, and I really like seeing the differences in days. I’m thinking of taking the challenge a step up, but I don’t know if I’m willing to do it. I’m thinking of doing a full week of the minimum 10,000 steps. I don’t know how doable this is because of working so much, but maybe? We’ll see
I was a little bad today and hit up Target/Michaels/Staples….
My Filofax is already looking more and more cute, and more and more useful. I’m still working out the kinks, and what works but it really has been coming along and I love it. I spent the day organizing it some more and I have been finding it relaxing, especially after the week I’ve had. I don’t know if I’ll be using those pieces of grey cardstock for anything yet or just keep it in my crafting stash but they were on clearance and I figured spending the whole dollar wasn’t terrible.
I still have a while to go, but I will show my organization on the blog. I thought about doing a video, but I have decided to only doing a video on my health/weightloss areas of the FiloFax. It just suits the vlog more. But here…here we can do whatever we want! So look out for that in the next couple of weeks.
Tomorrow is weigh-in. Eek!
I weighed in today on both the old an new scale. There was about a 2 pound difference between the two, the old one weighing me at 329.4 and the new one at 327. The new scale did give me a couple of different read outs, and I was a bit worried but it seems ok. I think I’m extra paranoid now about things. I could have just kept with my old scale, but I couldn’t justify something that had to sit there for a week to calibrate. Now I’ll just use it as a backup should anything happen. I do love the new look of the new scale. It’s really nice looking, and the blue-lit read out is so much easier to read. It also keeps the weight a while after I step off, which my old one never did.
No matter the number, it still a gain of 1.2. I am fine with this, I was horrible in calories for most of the week last week and I understand why I gained. I’m glad it was only that much, if I hadn’t tried desperately hard to fix it towards the end of the week it probably would have been more. I am surprised that I have kept tracking. Before in states like this, I would stop tracking. To “hide” the amount I had gone over, this is not one of those times and I am happy for this small improvement. It still doesn’t make it right, but I feel like I’m getting better.
That being said, today my awesome friend Braden came to help fix the car. We assumed it was just a dead battery and took it to AutoZone who tested it and confirmed it was dead. I got the new came back and installed it…and it still didn’t work. We tried other things, including jumping it and letting it run for a while but as soon as I put my foot on the brake it died. Needless to say, today is not ending on a good note. I fear having to tow it and get a huge bill that I can’t afford but it HAS to be fixed. It’s insanely essential for my job and it needs to get done.
I get paranoid about things that I haven’t had to do, and I’ve never once had to figure out what to do in this kind of situation. Do I call a tow place and get it sent to the Mazda dealership? Does Mazda have their own service? Do I pay for the tow seperatly? Do I have to be there when the tow comes of the shop? I don’t like not knowing, and I don’t like the fact that I might sound completely stupid about not knowing and that just stresses me out even more. My anxiety wants nothing more to not think of it and be done.
I tallied up the finals on the weigh-ins between 1-7-13 and 2-4-13 (the Monday after the big scale debacle and what I counted for this week’s weigh-in) and per my current scale I have lost…
::drum roll please::
Holy crap guys. That’s HUGE. I know that it’s going to gradually get slower and harder to lose weight now, and most of that scale movement is because of the drastic reduction of calories vs the amounts I was doing before, coupled with the fact that I am extremely overweight making it easier to see those higher numbers of weightloss. But. Guys. I’m stunned.
It’s been such an amazing month so far. I really love how things are finally shaping up. I’m happier, healthier, and just all-in-all excited about what’s to come.
And this week? I lost 3.6 lbs. Lets see what the new scale holds for next week, but already I can feel the difference, and that’s really all that matters.